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1. modded layout! now this is more like it XD i want a new, better layout though. something clean and modern and monochromatic and with photographic layout feel. i still feel this layout is cluttered.

2. finally! Fantastico = Wordpress 2.6! i lost my categories though, ugh, and had to re-categorize all entries half of the day, thus costing me sleeping time >.<. i don’t know if i should be happy or not that i actually have 100+ entries already @___@;;. and mostly all just ramblings…

3. omg i didn’t realize i’m already halfway through my picture wishlist askdfgkdgjldlskl:

and that Sard is actually already halfway through the layaway. so, technically, 5.5/10. or, more accurately, 5.5/21, if considering the next in priority in the wishlist (the complete list on my Wish —> page!):

11. SSDF body (real skin white)
12. Blueblood Silver
13. Dollzone Hong (white?/normal?)
14. AiL Bertram (white)
15. DiM Nakagauchi Masataka (white) yes XD
16. DiM Baba Tooru (white) i’m too excited to do all his beauty marks already asldkfjslfkdslk
17. DiM L’oeil
18. DM Huey Lewis
19. Soom Lazule / Spinel(<–still bummed about which mold, really = cream white + bjd hands)
20. Dollzone 70cm body + new (72cm’s) hands (white) the bulkiness/Volks-ishness of this body somehow still has appeal to me
21. Feeple Boy Body (white)

…how the hell did my wishlist get this long anyway =___=;;;…?

after layaway-ing Sard, i think i’ll layaway Pado next (if he doesn’t get sold out by the time i can layaway him, that is -__-;). and in the process or right after, i think i’ll either save up for that digital Canon and/or pay off my debts (=___^;;). Luts just go ahead and do not release the real-skin white SSDF yet XD.

4. I’ve already also put up my Personae page too —> and my Moon is already… nameless. i actually already have a name for him, but i will christen him on the proper date^^;;…

5. i caved >__< :

it’s those tassels. those tassels of doom, i tell you. and the jewelry. and the way the cloth falls and flows around too.

i would have wanted this as well:

but i still have to buy two epic Dollheart outfits >.<:

*…dies*

…someday. someday.

6. the battle of the 70cms chart updated! (but mainly I call this my Big Boys Chart now XD):

7. is this actually safe for bjds? (as in no oil-seepage from it in the future or something >.<? just using it for the occasional prop-holding, not for semi-permanent eye putty… i’m paranoid. and somehow i couldn’t find info on the chemical components of this product at the net):

( other things that have popped up during the past few days but i could not avail of =__=;;… )

wah:!:

Chen! for some reason his dress just makes me think Little Petshop of Horrors. i really love his dress =3! (and i’m glad DZ’s selling it separately! though i don’t know if the stock will still be enough when i get around to buying it ;^; )

Hong! omg I think I found my Saki???i wouldn’t have to cosplay my future Kato Kazuki minimee anymore? I think this is the boy I’d really purchase of the two. And yey, the dress too… =3~~~~ the only thing that kind of makes me hesitate in him being Saki is the fact that i couldn’t scrutinize at Hong’s eyes and see the Saki accuracy because of those pieces of hair perennially covering that face, and Hong’s lips is also kind of morose. hmm =___=;;;….

aww poor Celine… I think she’s/he’s completely off my list. he would have really been an accurate Saki, if not for the quite little face in proportion to the 70cm body. and the fact that I would have to mod her neckhole… I’m lazy. meh =____=. aww….

this is 2 of 3 gorgeous new boys from Dollzone. and WITH NEW 70CM BODY. i wonder what this new body looks like?? the fingers seem to look different to me… i hope it’s not as bulky-looking as Volks’. meh.

…why the hell are all these doll companies churning out all these epicness at this difficult time??? *bangs head*

and, it’s only just recently i learned what that upper thigh joint i’ve been seeing in the SSDF, Angelstudio molds really does *<—i know, I was just like personal fail XDD*

i had wanted to make some shorts too for Seth for that mini-meet i would possibly go to tomorrow, but i overslept X_x…

and also, Angell Studio!:

About Resin of 1/3

author：zero publish time： 2008-07-16 21:36 hit nums： 40

As so many guest worry about the yellow problem of french resin , we want to notice that the new french resin (opaque resin ) which is use for 1/3 doll’s is special.It is french resin but it has joined AS technology, the new opaque resin is more hard than japanese resin but the quality of anti-yellowed is as good as japanese resin especially when you use UV coat for you doll.All these members who worry about Gavin’s resin can feel free about this problem ,for sun tanned skin really can’t been more yellowed = =

uhh…meh. i’ve always had issues of believing things upfront (meaning, gullible =___=;;), so most likely still no or yes, depending on my mood and my money’s availability. just look at what happened to me and those missing Rikkai photosets.

an update on the missing Rikkai photosets… no updates yet >= (. no copy of a totally unrelated Japanese package receipt e-mailed to me yet. that’s such a pity.

aslfjsdkfhsdlgdlgdlsk!:

*hits head on desk* omg Angell Studio why do you do this to meeeee…

now, I had this particular character in mind who will be an additional to Toru(?) and my Sard’s side of things (that “Project DDS” i had been talking about previously…). My intention is that character would be a Flood, if ever Luts finally decides to release their SSDF in white skin, or a Bertram (though it would be resin-matching pains again). But then i saw those two… and my mind is practically incoherent again.

Particularly at Gavin (the tanned boy). Now, wouldn’t my first tanned boy be him? Because i really like his expression and his look XDDD. Though, personally, I think his overall aura is too strong for “that character” i have in mind =___=.

So I look at Van (the white-skinned? one). The only thing wrong seems to be the proportion of his features >.<. if you look at him at this angle though:

asdfkdgfhglsfjklalghlasgaghsdakjsbishounen!

…looks so “anime” compared to Flood, but will do ^____^. but i’m still hesitating.

now the only catch is… THEY’RE BOTH MADE IN FRENCH RESIN.

so that’s like, the wtf moment. now, French resin has this notoriety for bad reviews, despite the fact that compared to normal resin, French resin is luminous. yes, they’re that nice to look at, but wait until it yellows? something to that effect =____=;;;….

i also have no idea if they’re double-jointed, as AS is not showing any pictures of the posability of these new tall bodies. Though the arms look like they’re incorporating the peanut joint, the knees especially make me nervous, as I certainly wouldn’t want it to be as square like a Souldoll’s @___@ (the only thing that’s keeping me away from Souldoll, actually, though I really think the overall sculpt of their bodies are very good). and i don’t like the too-seen delineation of the head to the neck, as in, 見て (look below the elf ears)：

yes, i like my boys smooth and curvy~~~

But this is a good chance to have another white-skin 70cm body-type option around! (though on second look at nekkie pics Van doesn’t seem to look so white-skin at all, or maybe it might just be the blushing done). But still… French resin. =___=;;;.

honestly i would really have liked it if they made a normal-resin 70cm body for their Lucifer my secret crush instead (normal skin or white skin i don’t care, though i would most have likely picked the Senior white skin one because of my body-swapping option, heehee — the “Senior”-ity of the “AS Senior” almost seems like a joke as it is only a cm higher from their “AS Normal” >.<):

aww damn, there’s no separate head for Lucifer = ( but still he’s my secret crush hahahaha i’m seriously considering his senior version then. Though the Lucifer mold’s expression is still quite too strong for “that character”, still ^^;;;.

…why do i suddenly have this idea of just turning Lucifer into L’OEIL??? *gasp 0___0!*

now, I have mentioned that this post is schizo, so:
BATTLE START …though i wouldn’t have liked to think that way…

this is concerning my still missing Rikkai photosets. yes >= (.

i ate marshmallow and some instant noodles to start the day lol. it was not just a “marshmallow”, it was a “maaaaarshmaaaaaaaaaaaallooooooooooooow”. because it was really long lol! and “to start the day” because i have this habit of getting really hungry when 12am and 3am comes, that sometimes i couldn’t help but really wake up during that time whatever it takes and just that because i couldn’t cook full-blown meals for the life of me (started eating at 3am today actually, because 12am i was drowsy and slept for a while!). doesn’t help either that Masa’s talking about food… i wanna try shabu-shabu! i saw a shabu-shabu restaurant this weekend! but it was “Mini Shabu-Shabu” so i don’t have an idea how “mini” it is ^^;;;)

i also managed to do most of the laundry today *quite accomplished*

also! i think this is my final wishlist! by order in which they’re supposed to be bought!:

…well, i hope so. haha ^^;;; i just want Flood’s body too, in white skin, and poor Spinel pushed way back down. i added the Silver there because i had decided i really want to see for myself if he would BE my Kim though deep in my heart i already have a feeling he would be… my poor Moon =(.

my new DoA sig as well:

ah how i wish i had lots of money to just complete this thing.

my MU download keeps on dying too. ugh. oh it’s working a bit finer now.

i’ll be contacting Crescent Shop today, and Soom too. maybe bargain with Soom moving my next layaway schedule to the end of July? because i’ll be buying some Ba-chon travelogue and DL5 dvd heehee. i wish Soom will allow me… *cross fingers*

i’m also still upset about… yes, you already know (read back). being at the mercy of other people… i never liked that feeling -___-.

not so edit: my sabotenda i finally picked up from my post office today. OF COURSE. THIS ALSO. MEANS WAR >= ( :

my Ryo biyou no karte is the last time i’ll ever use the non-registered airmail service. i swear. dammit it just sunk to me again that those girls actually sent out the airmail non-registered. grr >= (.

…i hope this is the first and last time i’d ever wage war against anybody on LJ. no matter how diplomatic it would sound to be.

i didn’t want to term it as a “war”, but technically this feels like i’m about to go into a very long battle >__<. those girls aren’t e-mailing yet (on vacation), and i’m getting even more upset by the day. i just want this solved… though it might mean i would just get a refund and not get the Rikkai photosets after all well i fucking hope for a refund at least >.<. so much for waiting, and trusting those girls’ claimed reputation in handling those type of orders “efficiently”. even though i heard ordinary airmail has a disclaimer that it would possibly get lost (though i really swear i didn’t see any kind of disclaimer on the preorder post), OF COURSE I WOULD STILL DAMN STRUGGLE — its my friggin $96 after all >= (.

and this had been my first time doing this too. i hate feeling this fucked…

and as much as i want to keep this between me and the sellers (that’s why i even suggested the e-mail correspondence in the first place), i really can’t help but think about murderous rebuttals and thoughts in my head when worst comes to worst…

i hate conflict, but i still damn know when to fight for my right.

…i also better stop before i get anymore angry than i already am…

sorry if my post sounds so schizo. i’m starting to go Seth-ish. i’m just really pretty upset lately. must be lack of nutrition too >_>.

so basically i went “meh” again and just went ahead to buy myself some Good*Come magazines, the recent Cool-B mag (Sweet Pool! *dance!*), and that Ryo biyou no karte (やった…). i would have wanted to buy some Arena 37°C Specials as well but my cc is again maxed @___@;;. damn the time Leon white would finally release itself -___- — i’ll just think about where the hell i’ll get the money for that head when it’s already really there. meh. yes, I have prioritized getting my own dose of MasaxBa-chon instead of having Vincent’s mold finalized hahahaXD. as i’ve said, my patience has its limits, and i’m never really good with waiting.

which reminds me… those Rikkai photosets >.<. yes.
and about my oh-so conflicted view on finding the “real” Kim… i think i’m nearing the point where I’d actually replace my Redemption The Moon and get the Blueblood’s Silver as THE Kim. ken’s comments made me doubletake again^^;;;. if i’ll be getting the Silver, i might be modding the forehead… i dunno. make the eyebrow bridges higher…?

and being there’s a vast amount of taller white bodies out there, i think i won’t have a problem anymore regarding Kim’s supposed-to-be height compared to Shi (Shi would be the 70cm Abadon head+SSDF white skin hybrid, while Kim would more likely be a 65cm body… a Soom? its muscle detail is not so Kim though). but then… the skin tone *dies*. i wouldn’t want them in the same skintone, but… unless Blueblood creates a Silver Normal skintone matching Soom’s i wouldn’t be able to do anything…

i think i’ll just wait and see what happens to Blueblood in the next months i hope Silver wouldn’t run out of stock by then yet.

…but nuuuuu… I LOVE MY MOON ;___; *huggggggggggcry*. yes i’m so loyal to it like that, and somehow re-delegation feels like i’m betraying him ;^;... maybe he’ll just be Toru(?) then, the counterpart to my Sard which I have talked about some posts ago. but what will happen to my Bertram head then…? =___=;;;…..

i… don’t know. i’m really still thinking about this =___=…

asdfdfdkghdlgkjl WAWA has done it again:

trying… my best… to… resist… asdkfhskghkgldslgldg purple *___*…. no Salla you don’t need anymore clothes >.<…!

and i don’t know if i’ll purchase High Profile from nDoll or just wait for it to come out at Dollheart itself. argh.

…why am i still even thinking about this, when i don’t have anymore money. ROFL.

updated! with Buddydoll info + slight Dollzone footchange!

someone suggested Bishounenhouse, but when i went to the site there was no 70cm info >.<…:

WAWA doll finally messaged back. because of the recent calamity in China, prod was pushed back. i feel terrible for asking, suddenly >.<…

i’m disappointed. the SSDF made for sale are only Realskin Normal = (.

anyway, that means my cc is safe. but still i’m sad. argh i have to wait for a white skin release then…

my current lustwishlist!:

? – i’m not sure of getting this mold anymore, or the mold’s limited and already gone though there are speculations Tsukasa will return XDDD…
Celine’s now “?” status mainly because I’m thinking that the character for this would be that Kato Kazuki Minimee I’m planning to have… which brings us to the fact that I’m thinking of having a Masa, Ba-chon, and Shirotan Minimee as well, aside from a L’oeil (which was formerly a Bliss…)
Flood is mainly… I just want his body XD. for my Abadon’s head XDDDD (Shi!). and do you notice that the Spinel’s already far back in my priority list?? …yes XDD (I might end up buying the Lawrence and the Kara Klum first, actually…)

but with a list this long, I’m seriously thinking of some way now to fund my doll hobby =___= (and pay DEBTS @__@!). my salary is reaaaallllyyyy not enough =___=;;;…

updated Battle of the 70cms chart (someone reminded me that there is BuddyDoll as well… argh >.<…) :

argh… i seriously need to sleep now =___=.

ok, Luts event officially open ^o^! so i was randomly spazzing out at DoA boards again…

…OMG! the body… THE BODY! *____*! though all the washed-out-ness of all pics and the lanky+detailed sculpt understandably scared off lots of people.. and woah! bendable spine 0___0!

SHI FINALLY HAS THE PERFECT BODY. OMG THIS IS THE HAPPIEST DAY OF MY LIFE ;___*…

…until… ooops. Luts didn’t indicate if they have real skin white option =___=. aww, and i had been tempted to avail of the 15% discount too =(…

this may save my cc then, or me from doing something i might regret @___@;;.

but anyway, i has maketh sum nifty chart! — THE BATTLE OF THE 70cms! (+a Mecha Angel male and a SDF male^.^):

urkk… big-footed SSDF and here i thought no one could beat the Model Doll… i realize i forgot Dollzone =___=

えと。。。and i’m also here now, ready to say “fuck it ALL, i’m buying that L ~Change the World~ box set anyway, dammit”. someone’s got the first-press of Biyoushonen Celebrity special vol.2 already, damn =___=