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1. modded layout! now this is more like it XD i want a new, better layout though. something clean and modern and monochromatic and with photographic layout feel. i still feel this layout is cluttered.

2. finally! Fantastico = Wordpress 2.6! i lost my categories though, ugh, and had to re-categorize all entries half of the day, thus costing me sleeping time >.<. i don’t know if i should be happy or not that i actually have 100+ entries already @___@;;. and mostly all just ramblings…

3. omg i didn’t realize i’m already halfway through my picture wishlist askdfgkdgjldlskl:

and that Sard is actually already halfway through the layaway. so, technically, 5.5/10. or, more accurately, 5.5/21, if considering the next in priority in the wishlist (the complete list on my Wish —> page!):

11. SSDF body (real skin white)
12. Blueblood Silver
13. Dollzone Hong (white?/normal?)
14. AiL Bertram (white)
15. DiM Nakagauchi Masataka (white) yes XD
16. DiM Baba Tooru (white) i’m too excited to do all his beauty marks already asldkfjslfkdslk
17. DiM L’oeil
18. DM Huey Lewis
19. Soom Lazule / Spinel(<–still bummed about which mold, really = cream white + bjd hands)
20. Dollzone 70cm body + new (72cm’s) hands (white) the bulkiness/Volks-ishness of this body somehow still has appeal to me
21. Feeple Boy Body (white)

…how the hell did my wishlist get this long anyway =___=;;;…?

after layaway-ing Sard, i think i’ll layaway Pado next (if he doesn’t get sold out by the time i can layaway him, that is -__-;). and in the process or right after, i think i’ll either save up for that digital Canon and/or pay off my debts (=___^;;). Luts just go ahead and do not release the real-skin white SSDF yet XD.

4. I’ve already also put up my Personae page too —> and my Moon is already… nameless. i actually already have a name for him, but i will christen him on the proper date^^;;…

5. i caved >__< :

it’s those tassels. those tassels of doom, i tell you. and the jewelry. and the way the cloth falls and flows around too.

i would have wanted this as well:

but i still have to buy two epic Dollheart outfits >.<:

*…dies*

…someday. someday.

6. the battle of the 70cms chart updated! (but mainly I call this my Big Boys Chart now XD):

7. is this actually safe for bjds? (as in no oil-seepage from it in the future or something >.<? just using it for the occasional prop-holding, not for semi-permanent eye putty… i’m paranoid. and somehow i couldn’t find info on the chemical components of this product at the net):

( other things that have popped up during the past few days but i could not avail of =__=;;… )

hello, Jia. i have just received my Leon yesterday.however, I feel that it is the wrong item? Because I ordered a Leon-WHITE. but the head that came to me looks yellow (normal skin). 

I compared it with one of my white heads (it is the same color as Luts white). and to the white box that came with it (it is definitely a shade of yellow!):

How yellow it is was seen more clearly when beside a normal skin Luts as well:

i hope this issue will be corrected. Please confirm it with me and I will be sending the head back. However, please reimburse me my shipping fee back to you? As it seems to be the wrong item anyway.

DoA title: “is Elysium white really look this… yellowish >.<???”

*hits head on desk* argh what the hell are wrong with my packages recently??? and i have to spend a fortune again just to ship this back.

makes me not in the mood to post the mini-meet up pics from last weekend.

as of yesterday, Leon-white was already sold out.

0__0!

ETA: above was written yesterday. DoA was dead. today, Jia replied:

JIA	2008/07/27
Hello. Leon white skin match with Volks White body. (not UVprotect) Skin color does not match with other company’s white skin. Because no mistake, can not reimburse. I am sorry.

=___=;;; eh.

…so this is Volks old snow skin…! i think i actually saw a sample of it last weekend?? with one of my doll friends’ Magical Michael… (i dunno for sure if he’s the old white skin though? but that boy’s skin certainly looks yellowish, but still decent, much like the Leon…)

this is like… classic sweatdrop/wtf moment for me…

WHAT THE HELL NOW IS THE BODY I’D MATCH UP WITH THIS >.<???

i messaged Jia again, in lieu of my being perenially stubborn just making sure (at the risk of sounding stupid):

shinya	2008/07/27
oh… so this is what they call the Volks old snow skin? not the current Volks pureskin?

this is like… my first time encountering a Volks old snow skin. really. i mean, i saw some Tsukasas and several Volks molds, but I’m not really sure which is normal skin or pureskin or old normal skin or old snow skin or whatever… *dies*

looks like i wouldn’t be able to bodyshare this with my super-white Soom Sard then =___=;;;

(and the Soom Super Gem’s body had been perfect for this character! damn >.<. though the Leon’s color makes sense for my character Vincent Niikura instead of being paper-white, as the character also travels and all…)

i guess i’ll just MSC UV Cut this to death so that it wouldn’t yellow further.

thus…! my first adventure into Volks land! =___=;;;. i’ll be stalking DoA once again for that damn body.

yes, the other package: THE DRAMA THAT IS THOSE MISSING RIKKAI PHOTOSETS CONTINUES. i’m calmer now but still damn worried, but this whole thing is practically eating me up.

omgomgOMG:

THE DEMOLITION MAN CALLED BIX! SOOM is definitely rocking it. I’m really really REALLY worshipping them now *____*. they’re really going out of the box and out of the typical molds all other bjd companies are creating and exploiting all creative pathways in this hobby, and i’m really really so proud and happy for them. this IS sculpture*______*. i am truly now a Soom fan yes XDDD.

i wonder then what will be the next body part to be manipulated? and i wonder what would be the doll for my zodiac sign Libra *______*?? i hope and not hope it’s a guy… or else i’m doomed @____@

and omg if i was richer i would DEFINITELY get this boy just because of the claw and the costume alone. but the boy himself… damn GORGEOUS. nothing could ever describe *______________*.

…i have to finish paying my demon Sard though =____=;;;. and i have some Ba-chon, DL5 dvds, idol magazines and Dollheart outfits to target asldkfskghslghlsddfkssksl

(though it looks very much like a modified Spinel, like of this DoA owner’s haha^^;;;)

…this was kind of overshadowed though by the drama that is my still-missing Rikkai photosets. yes >__<.

Dollheart finally released High Profile today. damn.

i have decided i would get High Profile, Blue Blood. and maybe White Earl and Black Fantasy. in no particular order (but prioritizing High Profile and Blue Blood first). but seeing as my next priority purchase is Ba-chon’s travelogue dvd and DL5… *hits head on desk*

piccies:

it’s the epicness, i tell you. and i’m a tophat whore. with a lace-up fetish. yes.

…so impossible as of now ~___~;;;;. i hope High Profile and Blue Blood doesn’t run out by the time i get around to buying it.

I also saw tan Deneb up on sale on DoA, but with an insanely higher price than originally sold and rigid terms. it’s almost ridiculous… the terms i mean… and she looks kind of gay too >.<, for some reason. and i see a Peroth 0.0! *cries*

*slinks off to safety, but still bookmarking*

i don’t know why Elemental is not replying to my pm yet ~___~…

Collection Luke is still haunting me. askdhfsdkfhsldhdsglgsdl

i’m still currently chilling and cooking up the appropriate words for the start of the battle regarding those still-missing Rikkai photosets.

i have decided that i hate overtimes. specially if it’s in a job that you don’t really like and they just announce it right at the time you call in you’re end duty. i hate our timekeeper and my timekeeper hates me.

my teammates are cooking up some outing to a very cold place. i suddenly want to buy that Deorart coat i’ve been talking about so long ago. but i have no money =___=;. i damn want to buy some Eva tees too…

scratch that… i don’t even know if i’ll still be around by the time they get to really organizing it *bitter laugh*.

because it’s the last 2 weeks of the nesting period, and currently i’m feeling depressed about the whole stuff i’m doing and seemingly not improving. i still stutter. and i still think paying up if you’re among the lowest in the team performance is unfair, since understandably newbies like us are gonna screw up and around for the first few months. but i’m keeping mum about it… for now.

Masa! remove your cap! i wanna see the full extensions glory >.<!

O.M.G.

And it’s not just because I really need sleep, no >.< (i haven’t slept yet…! re-adjusting my body clock during the weekends is really a pain… and also because there’s the GW Dragon Festival event haha @__@;;;)… i think if there ever were molds that really looks good tan as if they were made to be that way, I think this is one of them (the other one I really think was Deneb ~Planet Spirit~. Deneb… *mourns*).

(really incoherent right now)

I dunno what are the mechanics of acquiring one? It almost looks like its exclusive to Hongkong and Korean buyers tho >.<…

i really need to sleep. after that GW event, i swear >.<.

i’ve been thinking/dreaming/daydreaming a certain Masa x Baba scenario lately. uh… nc-17. and my inner muse is demanding it to be written down. it’s pretty unhealthy >.^;;… why am i even saying this =___=;;…

i ate marshmallow and some instant noodles to start the day lol. it was not just a “marshmallow”, it was a “maaaaarshmaaaaaaaaaaaallooooooooooooow”. because it was really long lol! and “to start the day” because i have this habit of getting really hungry when 12am and 3am comes, that sometimes i couldn’t help but really wake up during that time whatever it takes and just that because i couldn’t cook full-blown meals for the life of me (started eating at 3am today actually, because 12am i was drowsy and slept for a while!). doesn’t help either that Masa’s talking about food… i wanna try shabu-shabu! i saw a shabu-shabu restaurant this weekend! but it was “Mini Shabu-Shabu” so i don’t have an idea how “mini” it is ^^;;;)

i also managed to do most of the laundry today *quite accomplished*

also! i think this is my final wishlist! by order in which they’re supposed to be bought!:

…well, i hope so. haha ^^;;; i just want Flood’s body too, in white skin, and poor Spinel pushed way back down. i added the Silver there because i had decided i really want to see for myself if he would BE my Kim though deep in my heart i already have a feeling he would be… my poor Moon =(.

my new DoA sig as well:

ah how i wish i had lots of money to just complete this thing.

my MU download keeps on dying too. ugh. oh it’s working a bit finer now.

i’ll be contacting Crescent Shop today, and Soom too. maybe bargain with Soom moving my next layaway schedule to the end of July? because i’ll be buying some Ba-chon travelogue and DL5 dvd heehee. i wish Soom will allow me… *cross fingers*

i’m also still upset about… yes, you already know (read back). being at the mercy of other people… i never liked that feeling -___-.

not so edit: my sabotenda i finally picked up from my post office today. OF COURSE. THIS ALSO. MEANS WAR >= ( :

my Ryo biyou no karte is the last time i’ll ever use the non-registered airmail service. i swear. dammit it just sunk to me again that those girls actually sent out the airmail non-registered. grr >= (.

…i hope this is the first and last time i’d ever wage war against anybody on LJ. no matter how diplomatic it would sound to be.

i didn’t want to term it as a “war”, but technically this feels like i’m about to go into a very long battle >__<. those girls aren’t e-mailing yet (on vacation), and i’m getting even more upset by the day. i just want this solved… though it might mean i would just get a refund and not get the Rikkai photosets after all well i fucking hope for a refund at least >.<. so much for waiting, and trusting those girls’ claimed reputation in handling those type of orders “efficiently”. even though i heard ordinary airmail has a disclaimer that it would possibly get lost (though i really swear i didn’t see any kind of disclaimer on the preorder post), OF COURSE I WOULD STILL DAMN STRUGGLE — its my friggin $96 after all >= (.

and this had been my first time doing this too. i hate feeling this fucked…

and as much as i want to keep this between me and the sellers (that’s why i even suggested the e-mail correspondence in the first place), i really can’t help but think about murderous rebuttals and thoughts in my head when worst comes to worst…

i hate conflict, but i still damn know when to fight for my right.

…i also better stop before i get anymore angry than i already am…

sorry if my post sounds so schizo. i’m starting to go Seth-ish. i’m just really pretty upset lately. must be lack of nutrition too >_>.

so basically i went “meh” again and just went ahead to buy myself some Good*Come magazines, the recent Cool-B mag (Sweet Pool! *dance!*), and that Ryo biyou no karte (やった…). i would have wanted to buy some Arena 37°C Specials as well but my cc is again maxed @___@;;. damn the time Leon white would finally release itself -___- — i’ll just think about where the hell i’ll get the money for that head when it’s already really there. meh. yes, I have prioritized getting my own dose of MasaxBa-chon instead of having Vincent’s mold finalized hahahaXD. as i’ve said, my patience has its limits, and i’m never really good with waiting.

which reminds me… those Rikkai photosets >.<. yes.
and about my oh-so conflicted view on finding the “real” Kim… i think i’m nearing the point where I’d actually replace my Redemption The Moon and get the Blueblood’s Silver as THE Kim. ken’s comments made me doubletake again^^;;;. if i’ll be getting the Silver, i might be modding the forehead… i dunno. make the eyebrow bridges higher…?

and being there’s a vast amount of taller white bodies out there, i think i won’t have a problem anymore regarding Kim’s supposed-to-be height compared to Shi (Shi would be the 70cm Abadon head+SSDF white skin hybrid, while Kim would more likely be a 65cm body… a Soom? its muscle detail is not so Kim though). but then… the skin tone *dies*. i wouldn’t want them in the same skintone, but… unless Blueblood creates a Silver Normal skintone matching Soom’s i wouldn’t be able to do anything…

i think i’ll just wait and see what happens to Blueblood in the next months i hope Silver wouldn’t run out of stock by then yet.

…but nuuuuu… I LOVE MY MOON ;___; *huggggggggggcry*. yes i’m so loyal to it like that, and somehow re-delegation feels like i’m betraying him ;^;... maybe he’ll just be Toru(?) then, the counterpart to my Sard which I have talked about some posts ago. but what will happen to my Bertram head then…? =___=;;;…..

i… don’t know. i’m really still thinking about this =___=…

asdfdfdkghdlgkjl WAWA has done it again:

trying… my best… to… resist… asdkfhskghkgldslgldg purple *___*…. no Salla you don’t need anymore clothes >.<…!

and i don’t know if i’ll purchase High Profile from nDoll or just wait for it to come out at Dollheart itself. argh.

…why am i still even thinking about this, when i don’t have anymore money. ROFL.

my WAWA clothes i had actually picked up last… thursday? (the 19th?)… meh i dunno for sure. my sense of date and time is already wanked @___@;;:

umm… i haven’t opened it yet. like what i’ve done with that epic dress from S+K XDDD. because i have that much respect for Salla, whose doll incarnation isn’t here yet (the Kara Klum). he wouldn’t appreciate fitting his clothes to somebody else. yes. yes i’m weird like that. but if i can’t really stop myself i’d probably end up fitting this on Kim, haha.

…so basically i wouldn’t be able to check if there is such bummer stuff like the workmanship not being good after all =___=;;.

my Togainu no chi Shiki figure + the limited PS2 also i took home with it. yay, dogtag~~~~ (i wore it to work hahaha)

and somehow i managed to go on to the next level on my job — THAT HELLISH NESTING PERIOD. 1 month of new hell. and after that, another deliberation, to see if we can move on to the OJT stage+certification for regularization. at that period i’d get some additional training money. if i get certified and regularized i’d have additional salary. yes (>.<)o <—*determined mode*. being regularized for at least a year means also earning myself a right to get a loan and slap it at my bank’s face, which means paying for my flat would be a whooooooooole lot easier and lighter…. (like, a 25 year term to pay for it all. hahaha XD)

…why am i rambling. yes. i’m also kind of worried too about my DL5 Rikkai photosets. OMG IT’S NOT YET HERE AND IT’S ALMOST A MONTH. i have to calm myself down before i pm that girl >__>…

i think i’ll be buying off those wigs from Elemental now. when she gets around to removing the “Closed for restocking” status and replying to my pm that is. and ordering that Ryo… no karte. and omfgadsdfslfjsldgjls High Profile’s already sold at nDoll *panics!* why the hell isn’t it at the Dollheart site??? hongkong’s nearer >.<~~~~. because i’m kind of getting tired and pissed waiting for that Leon white release. it’s been almost the end of the month. another promise broken. meh =/. (i’m starting to think now that whatever she had earned from selling off Leon normal is the money supposed to fund Leon white. but no, Leon normal isn’t sold out yet. huh.)

today i also made the 2nd layaway payment for the Sard. やった。 i think i already have a name for him.