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1. modded layout! now this is more like it XD i want a new, better layout though. something clean and modern and monochromatic and with photographic layout feel. i still feel this layout is cluttered.

2. finally! Fantastico = Wordpress 2.6! i lost my categories though, ugh, and had to re-categorize all entries half of the day, thus costing me sleeping time >.<. i don’t know if i should be happy or not that i actually have 100+ entries already @___@;;. and mostly all just ramblings…

3. omg i didn’t realize i’m already halfway through my picture wishlist askdfgkdgjldlskl:

and that Sard is actually already halfway through the layaway. so, technically, 5.5/10. or, more accurately, 5.5/21, if considering the next in priority in the wishlist (the complete list on my Wish —> page!):

11. SSDF body (real skin white)
12. Blueblood Silver
13. Dollzone Hong (white?/normal?)
14. AiL Bertram (white)
15. DiM Nakagauchi Masataka (white) yes XD
16. DiM Baba Tooru (white) i’m too excited to do all his beauty marks already asldkfjslfkdslk
17. DiM L’oeil
18. DM Huey Lewis
19. Soom Lazule / Spinel(<–still bummed about which mold, really = cream white + bjd hands)
20. Dollzone 70cm body + new (72cm’s) hands (white) the bulkiness/Volks-ishness of this body somehow still has appeal to me
21. Feeple Boy Body (white)

…how the hell did my wishlist get this long anyway =___=;;;…?

after layaway-ing Sard, i think i’ll layaway Pado next (if he doesn’t get sold out by the time i can layaway him, that is -__-;). and in the process or right after, i think i’ll either save up for that digital Canon and/or pay off my debts (=___^;;). Luts just go ahead and do not release the real-skin white SSDF yet XD.

4. I’ve already also put up my Personae page too —> and my Moon is already… nameless. i actually already have a name for him, but i will christen him on the proper date^^;;…

5. i caved >__< :

it’s those tassels. those tassels of doom, i tell you. and the jewelry. and the way the cloth falls and flows around too.

i would have wanted this as well:

but i still have to buy two epic Dollheart outfits >.<:

*…dies*

…someday. someday.

6. the battle of the 70cms chart updated! (but mainly I call this my Big Boys Chart now XD):

7. is this actually safe for bjds? (as in no oil-seepage from it in the future or something >.<? just using it for the occasional prop-holding, not for semi-permanent eye putty… i’m paranoid. and somehow i couldn’t find info on the chemical components of this product at the net):

( other things that have popped up during the past few days but i could not avail of =__=;;… )

updated! with Buddydoll info + slight Dollzone footchange!

someone suggested Bishounenhouse, but when i went to the site there was no 70cm info >.<…:

WAWA doll finally messaged back. because of the recent calamity in China, prod was pushed back. i feel terrible for asking, suddenly >.<…

ok, Luts event officially open ^o^! so i was randomly spazzing out at DoA boards again…

…OMG! the body… THE BODY! *____*! though all the washed-out-ness of all pics and the lanky+detailed sculpt understandably scared off lots of people.. and woah! bendable spine 0___0!

SHI FINALLY HAS THE PERFECT BODY. OMG THIS IS THE HAPPIEST DAY OF MY LIFE ;___*…

…until… ooops. Luts didn’t indicate if they have real skin white option =___=. aww, and i had been tempted to avail of the 15% discount too =(…

this may save my cc then, or me from doing something i might regret @___@;;.

but anyway, i has maketh sum nifty chart! — THE BATTLE OF THE 70cms! (+a Mecha Angel male and a SDF male^.^):

urkk… big-footed SSDF and here i thought no one could beat the Model Doll… i realize i forgot Dollzone =___=

えと。。。and i’m also here now, ready to say “fuck it ALL, i’m buying that L ~Change the World~ box set anyway, dammit”. someone’s got the first-press of Biyoushonen Celebrity special vol.2 already, damn =___=

i feel ill today. urgh @__@. and i realize it’s already May 18! time flies so fast ne~~~ and i hope the time until payday comes by faster! but that’s still at the end of the month @__@;;. i have passed Preparatory training at my job as well! Product Specifics starting tomorrow! we celebrated afterwards at a bar though i was supposed to go home hahaha X_x. too bad though one of us didn’t make it, unexpectedly, and four of us transferred to the other class just because of protocol reasons… just as my batchmates have all been closer now than before for just a week: what sharing of personal stuff could do to a group haha

anyway, i sort of made up my mind that I would take the chance and make L’oeil as a Minimee. thus! my doll wishlist:

I didn’t include the Minimees here as I feel lazy and ill @___@. the Minimees are L’oeil, Kato Kazuki, Nakagauchi Masataka, Baba Tooru, and Shirota Yuu, in order. But, most particular in importance though is Masa and Baba XD because I’m practically gushing over their DL5 photosets and fanservicing right now XDDDD —

— as you can see right here… AND OMG IT’S MY UPDATED WISHLUSTLIST OF DOOM >.<. how the hell did it get so overblown like this >___>;;;…

And I’ve made up my mind on putting that Soom Sard on layaway as well such brave and stupid me@___@. my self-control is really made of fail. damn though the reality that Soom only answers their Q&A’s late on weekdays *hits head*, so i have to wait VEEEERY patiently >____>.

And as much as I want to make him my Shi, I somehow know it couldn’t work because of those elf ears >___>. and i’m just too picky to sand it to normal, and Shi is supposed to be looking very normal. yes, there’s no normal ears interchangeable option for this guy, and no full ball-jointed hands option either (that’s what I actually asked at the Q&A, if I could pay extra just to get the full bjd hands as well Super Gems are supposed to have @___@).

i’m actually quite disappointed at this fact and warred with myself all throughout the weekend if i should push through with him. but since he’s so beautiful and those hooves are really made of epic, I relented =___=. epicness gets me everytime.

and I’ve also realized long ago that if ever, Vincent (the one that would be represented by the Leon-White) would most certainly need a separate body from Shi because of his huge tattoo detail. I would still buy the Abadon to be my Shi, and I would still buy a Spinel because the Spinel would still be my Stephen and his body (with the full bjd hands, if Soom wouldn’t agree to my proposal with Sard=___=;;) would be shared by the Abadon head. the abadon’s body would go to my Minimee L’oeil. the Sard being Stephen doesn’t work either =___= but he’ll surely make very good use of those Sard horns when he’ll be cosplaying for Saki hahahaXD.

I’m actually kind of already warming up to the idea of getting a tan Dollshe Rosen to be that Hindu character i’ve been talking about (that was supposed to be represented by my Bertram, but because of the Bertram’s color and features couldn’t). the Bertram I’d just make into this other character instead though once again i’m having little doubts on because the character i have in mind doesn’t look exactly like a Bertram, which is connected to the Sard.

so yes, these two are actually on a different universe from my DP:SCHISM characters XD (under what i call “Project DDS”, actually just a handle of the real title and story I’ve first thought of somewhere around 2006-2007 but I haven’t drawn yet like in DP:SCHISM format^^;;;… so i’m not saying anymore XD). so those Sard hooves will be put into VERY GOOD USE XDDDD.

also, today Elemental at DoA finally answered my query just when i thought she had forgotten about me @___@;;.

and i’m also itching to get myself some Wild Strawberry accessories >.< (Masa’s line, hahaha… i’m really weak when it comes to these kind of stuff =___=). but common sense is telling me to mind my late May and upcoming June amortization, the additional payment i still have to make for my incoming motherboard, payment for Elemental, payment for the upcoming Leon-White head, reserving some payment for the Togainu no chi PS2 order I made that would be charging me at the 25th which was sadly robbed by that devil Sard x__X, and Dollheart possibly releasing bombshells again with High Profile, Winter Walk, and Gray Gentleman at June oh I haven’t bought Blue Blood yet @___@;;;….

…i really need more money *dies* and recently i’ve been tempted too to just go the fuck ahead and start putting Ice Pado on layaway just to secure him… even when i really don’t have money left… dammit >___<.

aaaaaah!!! my JPopDolls finally arrived yesterday! just when i was about to give up…

…i really want to cry ;___^. it’s so perfect♥♥♥♥~~~~:

one is the “Misery” type (black with blue streaking), and the other “Night”…

ugggh…. it really doesn’t help that i’m lusting over that Dollshe “Rosen” right now >.< (thought i’m not exactly a fan of the faceplate change… makes me nervous @___@;;), because that Night wig is certainly perfect. And its a Rosen instead of that Bertram as my Hindu character, mainly because its tan~~~~

…but i love the Bertram, dammit me >.< . the skin color and eye opening is just not the character, BUT I LOVE THE BERTRAM. argh >__>…

…anyway, that custom coat from Honest Dragon at ebay has also arrived, just when i expected it to arrive around the end of May or something ^^;;;. i’m so happy!:

ehh… it looks and feels so warm, that i now hesitate to wear it. haha XDDDD. nice fit, and it looks bigger than i expected to be… (and, oooh, so this is cashmere XDDDD…). but this coat is really necessary on my job — i oftentimes get a bad case of chills sometime during work, with AC turned way up too high. that, or i just really don’t have that much body fat XDDDD. as in, really XDDDD.

it also came with that one button falling off @___@;;. but thankfully there’s also some spare buttons provided. and also there’s some artsy things that came with it lightly sandwiched in japanese paper:

uhhh…. i have no idea what this is^^;;;? and what is this for? (i couldn’t read Chinese >.< ). is this supposed to be some art deco thing or iron-on transfer or something >.< ???

and i finally got my birth certificate copy in the mail too, the same day. yay ^o^!

Elysium’s still not releasing Leon white yet @___@…. i definitely feel stupid stalking their BBS now… (so, the release turnaround someone warned in DoA is actually true. bummer >___>) part of me is wishing it would release the next month then, so by that time i finally have sure money @___@;;;.

Dollheart’s finally released Spider Addicts as well. and i’m quite… not impressed^^;;;? at closer look, haha. maybe it’s the Jekyll and Hide thingy going on with the coat. but the rest of the outfit’s impressive… (yay, gray! and tophat *___*!)

…i think Blue Blood’s still better though XDDD. if i was rich, i’d probably only buy Spider Addicts because this is of a different color theme now XDD. if i -was-. XDDDD

and WAWA’s restocking tomorrow. which is like… damn. because today’s orientation, technically the first day of training at work, and i just realized that next week our sched is surely running through bank hours. and i really need to go banking >__<. just so i can have some money to pay for that Togainu pre-order once it releases, if ever i get around to buying that blue robe set, which i definitely will >__<… *dies from sheer brokeness*

my Sunny wigs arrived yesterday XD. err… my USB is still busted so still no pics -_-. and i still haven’t tried them on my boys yet… only had 3 hours sleep today and i know i’d be damn lethargic at training later @_@ (what will we do in training today anyway???).

The dark coffee fur didn’t look so dark X__x. so i’m wondering now if Sunny actually shipped me the wrong item. But the coffee-b was exactly as i dreamed of for Seth XDD, so i’m happy. (i’m thinking now of e-mailing Sunny about this, that she might have mixed it up. And with the supposed to be “dark coffee fur” looking like the same length as the coffee-b too… makes me even more suspicious @__@. anyway, i’ll try it on my boys first thing tomorrow at daylight to check…)

And yesterday was also officially the 4th week of waiting for that music porter combo order from Jamie @__@. I’M REALLY WORRIED NOW, though she did say that at one time one order did take thirty days. 4 weeks=28 days. omg. and it’s going to be a weekend tomorrow too. So by the time Monday comes, it’s almost a month, and THAT definitely worries me… considering too that my first order from her only took about 2-3 weeks before it arrived 0o0! what’s wrong ;___;…

I hope it arrives by Monday. or Tuesday. because Lenten holidays are also coming here and that means no post office. And it’s either by next week I’ll really go full fret or ballistic on someone’s ass.

Also, some interesting new molds have been popping up recently. Omg I’m so conflicted now on which mold is whose, LOL.

However, I’m only sure of one thing, it’s this girl:

( up ahead… SPOILER-ISH FOR THE DP:SCHISM STORYLINE AND LOTS OF PICS! help me decide ;__;…? )

hey hey guess what i got on e-mail:

okay, thank you very much!

///love, XXX
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On Mon, Feb 18, 2008 at 8:39 PM, sherry choi <sabmdollATgmail.com> wrote:

Thank you so much for your favor..and your answer..

Dear XXX..
We have no excuse for you, how much we are very sorry for you…
Yes, we will afford an information email for you when he prepared..

Anu will make another project someday, maybe most wonderful one, very different to other ones.
but she needs just a little rest, now…

Can you wait for a while for next time..?
we will serve you at the 1st line, never will forget your warmhearted message..promise..

Again..
deeply appreciate for all your favors….

sincerel yours
Tensiya.com
sherry..

 

2008/2/18, XXX<mikagami8ATgmail.com>:
Yes! I will be very willing to wait for your information for the Bermanns with owners not found, if they will be prepared and available! Please just e-mail me right away =).

I am also saddened that I waited so long for this boy but still did not get him, but I also have no choice but to wait too for Anu’s next project. I am sure that it will be very beautiful! Would it also be with Dollshe?

Thank you very much for the chance.

///love, XXX

 

On Mon, Feb 18, 2008 at 7:47 PM, sherry choi <sabmdollATgmail.com> wrote:

Hi, dear, This is Tensiya.
Thank you so much for your application for Louis Doberman doll
who is the last series doll of Bermann Project..
and we are very very sorry for you that we have to say an unhappy news for you…
There were too many applicants than our expects,
So we had to agnoy agnoy agnoy and agnoy for a long time….
In the result of lottering, we excepted sevral names,
who’ve got already a Bermann doll, 1-2times from us..
Again..we are very sorry for our unavoidable dicisioin this time…..
The most regretful thing is..we can not make a promise for Next time,now..
Maybe there are 2-3 more Bermann dolls since they could not find their owner at the moment.
(2 dolls were 1st SA Bermann as normal skin,’shinshengumi’version _didn’t sell out,
one doll is SA Bermann as Tanned skin,who is the Il Milioone Doll version _order canceled)
But..I can not afford a certain information about their future.
Can we make an information later by notice email,when they prepared?

Again, we are deeply appreciate for all your great love….
and again deeply sorry for you …for that we made you to wait for him too much time..

I have no excuse for you that you would be feel bad for it…

please Do not be so sad about your missing these dolls..
Can you wait for our next Doll project that Anu will be showing up?
There are no fixing plan about it right now, We will make an informatino about it someday.
and It will be more wonderful than now..

Just….asking your great favors, and appreciate for your all generosities so much…………

Have a good day..
Sincereley yours
Tensiya.com

man, those lucky people with 2-3 Bermanns -_-…

as said before, with these chance games, i’m so unlucky, see XD?? (there’s actually a mini-discussion now on DoA on to how Tensiya actually did the lottery, if they actually included the names of those who bought Bermanns before. And on how i understood the letter, they did include those who had Bermanns before. as in, wow. so lucky. it’s like the stars had charted they would actually win again and again and again XD. freaky stuff. EDIT: Tensiya didn’t include in the lottery those who already owned Bermanns. ok)

anyway, i’m letting Louis go now except if there’s suddenly the freak chance haha XD that one would actually not pay for him. i’ll just wait for the new molds from Dollshe then. I got a long financial struggle ahead of me anyway, so buying anymore dolls right now would just overwhelm me ah, didn’t i pine for a carrier case and a dslr FIRST XD?

so for now i’ll mourn ;___;… this is just too sad…

there’s plenty of new dolls around too. OMG i’m so in love with Daneb! her whole look is like… SO Sallathiel’s bodyguard XD! but damn why does she have to be 79cm tall @___@ (because i had made a rule for myself that everyone would be not more than 71cm XD… i’ll just scare myself)

and as i was looking at Killian a while ago, I suddenly thought that he has a high possibility to be my L’oeil (instead of a SDF Bliss). I think it’s the lips XD, just the exact proportions to the nose versus Bliss’ wider mouth that’s just not L’oeil. and the 63cm height =). I have to mod the cheekbones and jaws though — too manly X__x. when i first saw him i actually thought he could pass as Soom Spinel’s brother or something…

i somehow managed to go to the charity event sewing cloth dolls. i was late again, as usual XD (overslept!), and felt a little awkward initially because it’s my first time doing this and with people i barely knew… i feel good afterwards though=), i’d probably participate again in the future (if work schedule allows)! saw my “fratmates” again too (Kahel’s in Singapore with Allebirthe though…lucky!).

click thumbnails for bigger pics:

( IMAGE-HEAVY! AS IN! yes i like to take an insane amount of pics… )

just to record this for posterity so in the future i can laugh at how insane i can be XD:

at DoA:
I didn’t get any e-mail from Tensiya, not even my registration confirmation from way back, it’s just too sad =( ! so does that mean i don’t qualify?

does anybody have the e-mail address? (because i just noticed that when the e-mail content was posted here the e-mail address to Tensiya is not included… is that a tactic?? lolz)

yes I sounded pretty sarcastic there, hahaha XD, my yahoo e-mail simply sucks. thank god i checked DoA.

so i changed my yahoo registered address to gmail (made even a new g-mail account! because my real g-mail account has quite weird spelling >.< )

but then, Mercy was so kind 0_0, PMing me about the address (that sometimes i just thank the heavens that there are still people like her that actually exists… it’s such a dog eat dog world…):

Yeah! It’s very scary! I just got the information to help people out pretty much. I think people are really revved up… so it’s best to keep it calm and all that.

Good luck!

–Mercy

Quote:

Originally Posted by mikagami oh, thank you very much! this is certainly nerve-wracking stuff going on right here @__@…Quote:  Originally Posted by Mercy email to: SABMDOLL@GMAIL.COMYou need to do this ASAP.Here is the information. Good luck! Remember, you MAY NOT win the right to buy this doll.–Mercy  ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Hi, dear… Thank you so much for your long waiting.. and now we are preparing to release information of purchasing Bermann doll.. ================================================== ==========================================

i think scary is an understatement XDDDDDD. it’s more like… murderous @___@….